Changing of the tide

Well I am slowly coming back to life. I don't want to jump the gun here; but, I am feeling a little bit more hopeful about my future these days. And that is what it is, Mine. He gets after me all the time about finding a job. My oldest is six and youngest is almost three. I feel so lucky to have stayed home with them this long. I do work part-time at the youngest one's preschool. I only recently started doing this to help me emotionally. According to my ex, I will call him Flotchy for now on, our marriage took a turn for the worst because I was depressed. I was depressed because I was a stay at home mom. I realize now, I was depressed because I was married to a narcissistic, bipolar, sex addicted man. If you read about any or all of these you can get a picture of what I have lived with for eight plus years. Anyone would be drowning emotionally, dah! So just realizing that his actions caused me to feel this way is helping me get out of this emotional mess. Along with the emotional mess, he also created a financial mess that I have to swim out of as well. This is my focus now. I need to find a job that I enjoy and allows me to spend time with my girls. I need to pay off my debts. I need Suzy Orman!! He has the girls this afternoon so I can do some job hunting. I have a mission now.